Running Together

Running Together

I ran the 5K, starting behind the lads in their football shirts. As the flag lowered, off they raced up the hill, looking across to check that they were ahead of their mates. Then in turn, each boy heard the light footfalls of someone approaching from behind. They glanced back, concerned that a friend was about to overtake. Panic! Not a mate, it was an old lady.

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Two Tribes Go To The Gym

Three months into my gym membership and I still haven’t plucked up the courage to go to the weights arena. It’s just on the left, in a little off-shoot from the main concourse. There’s no major grunting or clanging from its bubble. It’s never crowded. The gentle waft of stale sweat and rubber isn’t too strong. However, it’s the territory of another tribe. A tribe that moves with composed power and rigidity of spine. A tribe for whom every movement, even an exhalation, is a focused explosion. 

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Am I Really a Runner?

Early autumn saw me a tad jaded. I'd done a couple too many 'fast and flat' city road races, hurt my back and caught a cold that didn't want to shift. I vowed to stick with what I enjoy - mud, hills & trails surrounded with green earthy smells. Then I bought a turbo trainer. This feels like having an affair.

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Because You Are Gold

Because You Are Gold

I get stressed about how stressed kids have become! It’s not their fault. They are coping with emerging hormones whilst over-stimulated from an online existence and under constant pressure from an endless cycle of assessment. We adults, even (especially?) the tech-savvy ones, are stumbling around in a digital world of bright white screens and constant streams of florid effluent that we’re supposed to “like” just to prove we’re connected, when really we’re drowning in it all. Yep, I know I’m being ironic.

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Milestones & Motivators

Life's milestones seem to come in clusters, not evenly spaced. In the last weeks my husband started a new job & entered his 50th year. Also together we moved house, packing most of our shared lives into two shipping containers. Our next home is currently a building project. We're on that cusp of the next big birthday and, of course, I want a running achievement as a milestone marker. What should it be? 

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Effort Anxiety & Mindful Running

Do you grow anxious when pushing yourself to run fast over a mile or two? Does the effort make you feel as if your airways are constricting, that you can't catch a breath? Does your rapid heart rate seem to be accelerating out of control? If so, hopefully you've sought medical advice and been checked for any arrhythmias, asthma or other physical conditions. Ruling those out, might the problem be that your brain hasn't yet learned to cope with the physiological changes of a body labouring under effort? 

I don't know why it's taken me so long, but I've only recently become aware of how distressed some people become when they try to push themselves hard over a few miles. These are people who can run very well over 5 - 13 miles, but who seem truly panicked at middle distances where hard, uncomfortable effort is sustained for many minutes. The feelings they describe are very similar to those psychologists consider diagnostic of panic attacks.

If you run purely for health benefits, mental and/or physical, then you don't need to run/race over the distances and at the effort that trigger such sensations. However, you might wish to take control of them and, thankfully, cognitive behaviour therapy (CBT) has established success in helping people deal with such distress. The core approach is to be mindful - curiously aware of sensations and thoughts, stepping slightly out-with them to observe them, marvel at them and then switch from one sensation or thought to another. Such mindfulness takes practice. Begin with something pleasant, maybe a small square of dark chocolate. Take it into your mouth, become aware of how it feels resting on your tongue, the shape of it, how the shape begins to change as it melts, the spread of flavour across your tongue etc. (In writing this I had to go off to find chocolate.) Be attentive to each sensation and gently try to keep your mind focused upon each sensation in turn, directing it away from the noises around you and the other thoughts that creep in. Try being mindful on a steady run, maybe focusing upon the smell of wet earth after rain, then the roll of pressure across your foot as it contacts the ground. Enjoy wondering about these sensations, enjoy being able to shift your focus and take control of your thoughts. Once you've developed your skills in being mindful, then you're ready to incorporate a bit of stress to be marvelled at and observed. Attend to the accelerated heart rate, marvel at how your body adjusts to supply oxygen to muscles, feel the heat rising to your skin, radiating outward. Attend and notice that you aren't burning, your heart is continuing to beat, your body is an amazing, efficient machine.

I use mindful running to feel connected to nature and to switch out of cycles of negative rumination. When I've got myself into a negative mind frame, 30 - 40 mins running outside is the best therapy. To feel really good, I'd add the hard exertion of speed intervals or running uphill or through mud/sand/water. The extra effort let's me be mindful of the strength in my scrawny body and that, whatever else is happening, I have strength.

Further reading

"Exercise for Mood and Anxiety" by Michael Otto & Jasper AJ Smits. This is a wonderful book, written by academic specialists in exercise and motivation. They also seem to be as human as the rest of us, making their advice pertinent and easy to read.

"Mindfulness: a practical guide to finding peace in a frantic world" by Prof Mark Williams. This book and cd combination is very strongly recommended.